" I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know just how much you mean to me
And after all the things we put each other through and
I would drive on to the end with you
A liquor store or two keeps the gas tank full
And I feel like there's nothing left to do
But prove myself to you and we'll keep it running
But this time, I mean itI'll let you know just how much you mean to me
As snow falls on desert sky
Until the end of everything
I'm trying, I'm trying
To let you know how much you mean
As days fade, and nights grow
And we go cold " - My Chemical Romance


i really miss the old us .
wht's happen to us ?
to 'someone':
do u realise u've been veryvery cold towards me ?
do u even realise tht u left me out at times ?
and why do u show the 'not happy' face when i went to hang out with my brudders ?
do u know tht they asked me abt this ?
wht do u think i'll feel ?
i love them as much as i love you guys !
i care for them as much as i care for u guys
why must it be so unfair to me ?
it's easy for u to hang out wif ur new friends without anyone saying anyth
but why must u do tht to me ?
i must balance my schedule just to be fair with both sides ?
it's not as easy as u think D:
abt hamizan , i really want the best for him
but he didnt seem to appreciate whtever i've done for him
to his 'Bestfriend' : stop influencing him pls ? i can go on my knees and beg u for tht

beloved brudders and sisters :
i still LOVE and CARE for u guys the way i used to
i nv ever hated u guys for anyth
not for all tht u've done
i love u guys , just the way u are
izzat says : seriously , just stay with ur friends. we'll be fine . dun worry we'll be gone in a few mths
bro , u'll be fine ..
hv u ever thought abt me ?
where's all those promises we made to each other ?
i knw u're pissed , can't u just scold me ?
we promised to stand by each other in all odds
i knw i've not been slacking wif u guys for very long
doesnt mean i dun love u guys anymore
doesnt mean i forget u guys alrd !
i love u guys alot !

ctee : i still love u and naaziya alot k
it's not the case tht i've forgotten u guys
i need to balance time
to make sure everyone's happy
i'll put my happiness , last
be happy when i'm not arnd k
like wht izzat says, u guys will be fine even when i'm not arnd


izzat bro,I'm sorry :'(