to my jiwers :
i feel bad, sad, left out, dissapointed in myself . i feel lyk im no longer a part of der family ! i missed all of you . atiqah, ashura, dee, zaidi, fafa, ctee . i'm sorry . but i cnt keep dis anymor . i read atiqah's blog . u guys had great fun on ashura's burfday bash . i wished i had der same one too . but i did nort turn up for the bash ! i told u guys im goin but in the end, i didnt . im sorry . ashura, i know u will feel bad . ur own jiwer did not turn up for ur burfday . but i gort no choice. i just couldnt go ! i feel lousy . i haf no rights to be called ur jiwers . looking at dos fotos, it makes me feel worst ! fino's alrd part of the family . im not inside the foto . i feel lyk an idiot . wad should i do ? i am sorry . i am sorry . i am sorry . i love you guys a lot ! wont forget wadever we went thru . i am looking forward to our next jiwers outing . really . honestly . sincerely . i feel lyk i've left u guys and u guys haf left me . alone . by myself . it's okay if u guys dun wanna share secrets wif me anymorr or dun treat me lyk ur own .as long as i know the truth, i will try my level best to accept it okays ? so cheer up guys ! dun feel down for me ! i loved u guys, loving and will always love u guys !

sincerely,
your own 'mussy' JIWER